Miss Rose is one year old. One whole year. I am the mother of a one year old.
One year has officially flown. Everyone told me it would but I didn’t fully believe it. When it was happening parts of it felt like they were dragging really slowly and would last forever. But it didn’t. I remember the hard times, they were excruciating at times, but they are over. I remember the good times, they were phenomenal at times, and the memories are still with me making me smile. But those times are gone too.
A year of my life, the best year of my life, is over. And this year starting, Rose’s second year, looks to be even better. She is walking, she is starting to talk and she is freaking amazing. When she says “mummy” and gives me a slobbery baby kiss there is no better feeling.
It is still hard at times. We still have bad days, we still have bad nights, and sometimes I still feel like a hopeless failure of a mother, but those times are getting fewer. Gradually over time we are finding our way, we are learning about one another and discovering how to coexist happily. It’s a learning process I think will never end, but learning is getting more fun.
If you’re a new mum and struggling I promise it gets better. I promise the first year is as amazing as it is exhausting and as beautiful as it is terrifying. It does get better. It does get easier. It does go by in the blink of an eye.
One year has gone so incredibly quickly that I’m convinced I will wake up tomorrow and find my baby girl is now a grown woman starting a family of her own. So my advice is to slow down, appreciate each moment for the pain or pleasure it brings, because soon it will be gone and you never get those moments back.
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Thanks as always for reading, and I’ll speak to you soon I hope!