I was never going to be a shouty mum. I was going to be calm, reasonable, and gentle in my approach to bad behaviour. To give myself credit I usually am fairly calm most of the time but today not so much.
My husband and I had some tragic news yesterday as a family member has passed. We are both heartbroken and stressed, but in front of Miss Rose maintaining a cheerful demeanour to avoid upsetting her with something she could have no comprehension of. But despite best efforts it has left us both that step closer to the edge than we normally are.
Today Miss Rose has been naughty. She has whinged and tantrummed. She has clung and clawed, snotted and shouted. She has repeatedly yanked things out of my kitchen cupboard despite being repeatedly told no.
There is, unfortunately, only so many times I can say “No darling”, “No sweetheart”, “No honey” and calmly replace the piece of contraband she is making off with and provide her with a legal toy to play with. I reached my tether after perhaps the fifteenth effort and let rip with an almighty “NO ROSE!”
Unfortunately this was not met with obedience. It was met with giggles. Giggles at a mother with a hurting head, a dinner on the stove, and absolutely no patience left. The repeated “NO ROSE!” as she continued to ignore me left me on the brink of tears and heading next door to thrust her into the arms of my brother so I could take a moment to breathe before my head exploded.
I became a shouty mum and I’m not proud. But I’m unhappy and hurting. I’m hoping that the occasional loss of patience, when really at my limit, resulting in shouts will not scar her for life. I’m also hoping that one day she will understand, perhaps not until she has a wayward toddler of her own, but one day.
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